I was editing my buddy list today and decided to remove some peoples names from it because 1. I never see them online anymore and 2. I never hear from most of them. When I was finished it was kind of depressing because now I'm only left with three people on my list. I don't know why it bothered me since I don't like to instant message anyway.
Last night I logged off the computer and got up to turn off the lights and go to bed when next thing I knew I was lying in the floor unable to move. I had passed out again. Cameron and Robert both were in bed so all I could do was lay there until I was able to call out to Cameron since his room was closest to me. Poor kid, it scared him to death. He wouldn't go back to bed until I let him wake Robert and then get the OK from both of us that I was gonna be alright.
On my last visit to the Dr he told me I tested positive for Rheumatoid arthritis. That explains why I'm so stiff and in so much pain. He also told me that soon my body would start rejecting the blood and platelet transfusions.
I still haven't found anyone to care for Cameron for two of the three months I'll be in the hospital for the bone marrow transplant. I'll be speaking with a Social worker Tuesday to see if they can find him a temporary foster home. I hate getting them involved but what other choice do I have? It's a sad situation. No one with cancer or any other serious illness should have to worry about such things. And neither should the child. :(...
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I've got dozens people on my buddylist but only 1 that I exchange IMs with, Lahoma. I operate mostly outside the AOL client software, so it means little to me. I am sorry you find yourself with only 3 names though, that will make you feel lonely. Something exacerbated by the fact that you have to foster Cameron out, a dreadful thought in fact. I am not privy to your private situation, but it sends a signal. I wish you strength in the times ahead, and J-land is here if only to give moral support.
Hi I have only heard about your journal and thought that I would pop in and say hello. I don't use IM much..in fact I am fairly new to all this( though have had a journal for about a year please call round if you like) I am so sorry to hear of your forthcoming visit to hospital. I am sure all will turn out well in the end, I hope to hear again from you soon. I will keep you in my prayers. xx Sybilsybil45
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Have a blessed Sunday!
Linda :)
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Guido sends me with his angel wings spread wide open,for he knows when someone needs cyber-hugs.
I truly am sorry you are going through such turmoil .
I was sent to a special place where we can go and light a candle in prayer for someone and I am going there now to light one for you and send prayers your way
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***BIG HUGS***
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I'm your buddy no matter what. I love your spirit, your get-it-done attitude even in the face of terrible illness...you have gumption girl and a lot of people out here are seriously lacking that crap. Cameron can't just stay at home? Or go with you? You are afraid the two guys in your life will not get along well without you there? If that is the case, they both need to be sat down and very strongly spoken to. In your state you do not need any more anxiety or worry, which is bad for your condition. The three of you have overcome so much in the past two years...pull together a bit more.....love you..Sandi..PS you can IM anytime I love them
Hello Lahoma
Guido sent me across to offer you some support and encouragement. I am not one for Im's as I don't have the time to sit and converse like that. It runs away with the day.
I am so sorry to hear that some of your friends have drifted away. I hope that in some way we can be there for you to sound off to whenever you need to.
Its sad that you have to ask the Social Worker to find foster care whilst you are in hospital. I have put you on my alerts and hope that you feel well enough to make the odd entry whilst you are having your treatment.
Meanwhile...I will say a prayer for you and your family that all will turn out well.
God Bless
Jeanie
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Sent over by Guido to bring support and prayers!! I wish I had an answer for your situation, it's a sad situation, I'm sorry that you are dealing with so much right now. Don't let the stress get you down, things will work out.
Take Care,
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LAHOMA...WHAT ABOUT YOUR FAMILY? OR HIS DAD? I FORGET THE SITUATION THERE....BUT LOOKS LIKE SOMEONE WOULD OFFER TO HELP...
GOD BLESS YOU,
LOVE YA,
CARLENE
Please leave me on your IM. I don't IM often but would like to if I see you on there. You're like the only person I ever talk to on it anyway.
That is way too horrible for Cameron to have to go through being in foster care. Your family sucks. But you know that already. I've followed these horrid stories for four years so I do know the history and the background.
If you know where Jolee is I think that's where the man said the people from our church are coming.
I'm worried for you that you hit the floor like that. So concerned.
Love you very much, Nelishia
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There are many people in my area that do respite or temp foster care & I hope that is the case in your area as well. I wish your family could do this for you, but I understand some just can't. I hope you find a good resolution & that he doesn't feel badly about this. ~Mary
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keep a small whistle around your wrist so when you fall again you can gets someones attention sooner. Look into the social services dept at the hospital,or local church groups who can help out with your son...maybe he can spend 1 month with one family then another month with another family. Isn't Robert able to stay and take care of him and your animals? And where is Camerons Fathers side of the family?
yoo hoo! well, I have worked back until I found where I left off! I was on holiday for a week and then came back last weekend and have been knackered ever since! Quite a shock going back to work lol well, I love the new look to your blog. I am sorry you had a fall and you have the worry of Cameron and fostering too. I love the pic of him in your side bar, he is a handsome lad...Linda xx
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